I am not sure if what you all will read ahead will make a difference in your life. I hope it triggers a thought, and if it does, then, my friend, you are at least aware of your reality.
A few years ago, a guy, an introvert, was quite scared of the world, the judgments, and the stereotypes. All in all, he didn’t know if the world would understand who he is or if his unique factors made him less of a human than everyone else. Each day he met his friends; he just agreed with whatever the majority decided to without even acknowledging what he is getting into.
Every time he was asked to make a decision, his heart raced faster than his thoughts. Intense emotions used to fill his heart with pessimism and the thought of whether “Am I good enough?” The constant anxiety forced him to make some drastic decisions. He gave in to peer pressure, became a chain smoker, and from someone who had a perfect academic record, he turned into a person who did not know where he wanted to be in life.
Exhausted from life, he found himself in a circle of people with euphoria. In them, he hid until this one fine day while smoking, he experienced his heart racing like every other time he was asked a question. Still, this time it was more intense; the pain was real, the feeling of being numb was not metaphorical anymore.
This 18-year-old kid had to go through 6 months of treatment, fighting death each day, just because he wasn’t brave enough to overcome his fears, to make a decision that would do him some good. Sometimes like this individual, we worry too much about what the world thinks about us. These negative thoughts often begin to feel so real and act like slow poison affecting our every decision, changing our lives, which in most cases doesn’t end up well.
This state of intense, excessive, and persistent worry and fear about everyday situations is called ‘Anxiety.’
That 18-year-old kid is who I was a few months ago; it took me one and a half years and a near-death experience to realize that the person I became was not the real me. Everyone and I mean every human, is just one step away from making either a bad or good decision.
Anxiety can affect your choices; it will tell you every moment of your life ‘you are not good enough,’ ‘You are a loser,’ and many such things. All you have to remember is that these are the creations of your own mind; imagination can be a tricky thing, yet if appropriately shaped, it is the most immense wealth someone can possess.
Anxiety can happen to anyone, anywhere, anytime. It can stay with you for an extended period, and if you have read this till here, then my friend, somewhere in your heart, you do want to take that leap of faith. Don’t let anxiety and stress eat away your happiness. There are many organizations, both offline and online, that can help you cope with these changes. One such organization is BetterHelp, which can link you with the best therapists from across the world.
Just close your eyes take a deep breath, and if possible, keep this small thing said by Bruce Lee, “The key to immortality is first living a life worth remembering.” And that life is just one step for everyone, whoever out of y’all are facing these issues, take that jump you won’t regret it, I promise.
About the Author: Sarthak Suman is a 1st-year BAMC student at the Manipal Institute of Communication. “To see the world, things dangerous to come to, to see behind walls, draw closer, to find each other, and to feel. That is the purpose of life.” – LIFE